Just as i was looking back at the OCS photos that crossed my mind. How long do friends really last, how much percent of them really make an effort to constantly keep in contact in the next few years. How much friends next time will become so practical nad can't be trusted, whom will only find us when they wanna use us. How many people out there have experienced this. How do we separate those who are true to those who are too practical......How sure am i that all my platoon 3 friends will remain in contact in the future

I think i should just treasure and enjoy the moment la.. .  The future is so unpredictable.

Its been weeks, and i have been so busy with my course and once i got back to camp i have to take command straightaway. So many things have happened for the pasted few weeks, it given the chance to turn back time, i would not be so down now.

If given a chance, i would have double ensured that i carry my weapon out for survey

If given a chance, i would not have bothered about the best trainee and just be myself.

If given a chance, i would have not been complacent and remember to plot and pace when i topo

If given a chance, i would not have tried to take short cuts, that cause the big fuss

If given a chance, i would have bought the advanced theory ten year series for the test and not fail it for the SECOND time .. AARGHHHHHBH

If given a chance, i would not have gone to the skin centre the other day, coz the problem is incurable.

If given a chance, i would have check my men's ten pack items more strictly, then i no need to book in so early.

But wat done cannot be undone.....

i feel fortunate for being brought up in a wonderful and caring family

i feel fortunate for being stalked by ms cher huisi

i feel fortunate to have gone to OCS and meet Bravo platoon 3

i feel fortunate for knowing my 'opp named' friend.

i feel fortunate to spend my past two birthdays in camp.

i feel fortunate that u are looking this now.

i feel fortunate for using this 6610 for so so so long, and can only change 2 months later

i feel fortunate that i have time to do such a cock thing

李圣杰--手放开

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待
最后的疼爱是手放开
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

For the past week, i have been working hard till 9plus everyday. SAF money so difficult to earn ah. The sword even more difficult, if i had been slacker, maybe i could be slacking in staff job; enjoying my NSF. All the bitches like joshua and company must be laughing, too bad that i that little bit more on the ball than others in ocs.

Other than the long hours of training under the hot sun, sweating like bear everyday, i even had to dig. Oh my god. I thought i do not need to dig anymore, who knows.... too bad for me. Still remember that i never had any blisters after three days of digging in Ex spade, but this time round i got 5 blisters on my fingers just in 1-2 hours of digging. Know why? Coz we had to dig a hole in 1min, really 60 seconds. How many got strike of the chunko can we give in that one min. but in the end, luckily i found a better soil condition, chao geng a little bit la, then i pass. That is what everyone did If not, they wont ever pass it. I really tolong tolong that i do not need to dig anymore. really sian liao. But come to think of it, my men are even more sian, they have to dig even after the course, coz its part of their job scope.

After one month of slacking in my  new unit, finally i have to go for the mortar course. It is going to take 6plus weeks and i am already so sian after the first week. The mortar is freaking heavy, bulky, oily, powerful, greyish.... The whole gun plus the carriage weighs 405.50kg. Super heavy la. the barrel alone? Guess? i thk 72 ah. Dun bother remembering about the weight after the test.

Then we have been having tests and drills the whole week out in the hot sun. Really M1 since thursday. Somemore, they say next week we will do that for one whole week. WAhahahahaa sian ah....  Wat to do? but after the course, i will just have to sit on the vehicle to move ard everytime during battalion exercise next time.. See the OC and CSM who is on course with us also shack out, and kao pei kao bu everyday, also wanna laugh. Sometimes i am asking myself, 'why Am i Here?' Too bad la.... maybe this is to repay all the fire and movement that my fellow rifle PCs have to go through..

Looking forward to next week;s more shiong training.. even have to dig. . .sian

this is the first week of my mortar course and i am that unlucky to have to spend my birthday in camp. this is the 2nd time already, my godness. Guess i always have sad birthdays ever since i joined the army.

But really happy for my ODAC buddies and jie mei for celebrating my birthday on last saturday. Really never expected it. Guess that was the only thing i am going to receive for my birthday this year.

Never mind, i vow to have a celebration for my birthday next year to compensate. Somemore, it will be my 21st birthday plus the day b4 my birthday will also be my ORD date, triple cheers.....

Just as i was slacking, i went to view my friendster accoun which was abandoned for quite some time. Then i got a shocked out of my life to receive a msg from the stalker who have caused me to live in fear sometimes a few years back. ITs 6 years already leh . she Still want to pester me like last time. Someone Help me ah, i never talk to her or tried to know her ever before leh, why like that. Last time i will be very angry to know this, now i will be very sian liao. Wun care abt her la. Too bad for me, bad things come after me but the good things doesnt seem to come hor...

Want to know wat she wrote, read below. I will not reply her, guess all my friend who read this will also ask me to ignore her la. Somemore this is not the first time she ask me to reply her on such things and promise me a peaceful like thereafter. When will she wake up.

"Weihong, i noe i should not contact u again..But i
dunno y i dreamt of u every nite recently...When i
saw ur recent photos i juz cant control myself 2
think of u...These few mths,i hav tried my very
best 2 noe other guys n wanna 4get u...But when i
heard frm others tt u go 2 ocs plus u juz break
off wif ur galfrend,i feel sad... Though i tell
all e ppl out there,i hav 4get u liao n even hate
u alot...but deep in my heart i still quite care 4
u..I noe u very angry wif mi coz i mak u feel
shameful infront of ur friends..but tt tym i was
too anxious 2 hav a stead...When i think back e
past things tt i hav done frm sec 1 2 last 1st
half yr,i feel really sorry...i noe it was too
late 2 say sorry but..since nw u dun hav a stead,y
dun u juz giv mi a small little chance...if u 1 2
reject mi can sms or cal mi y..? so tt i can
really giv up hope on u... Coz i realy very tired
liao...I noe u confirm wun reply but can do mi a
favour..if u wan 2 let mi down n giv up on u..Juz
cal or sms mi @97855159..Plz...If u 1 a peaceful
life... "

Its Monday today, a public holiday and i am doing nothing at home. I really cant stand doing nothing, like a bit useless. Even though being in the army will not be anything better, i guess i rather have something to do than nothing. How i yearn to have somebody to be here to talk and share our time together. But guess the time's not right. Still got lots of time to find one in UNI.

Somemore i actually wanted to buy a new phone this week Samsung E720C, starhub selling at 368 but singtel at 638, i almost fainted. i thk i am not going to stay with singtel after my contract. Going to ask a lot of ppl to transfer to starhub. Even when i wanna ask hongwei to help me buy my phone using his starhub line, and i will help him buy another phone from M1 or singtel, it still didnt work out. All their phones more expensive and somemore i dun even have 18 months contract yet. so SIan ah......